How much longer for this storm to pass? I have made the repairs to my vessel, my destination is in sight, and I am prepared for whatever the distance in front of me bestows. I used to believe my lack of feeling was eternal and  hindered my growth. However, the more I dig in the depths of my psyche the more I realize this numbness allows me to perceive and judge unclouded. It permits me the pleasure of being able to get lost in the moment, to feel so deeply  in an instance. I used to believe that fear controlled me. I was born with burdens that I involuntarily accepted, which made me feel the fear of not being accepted. Yet I forgot that I  chose my path, I begged to be different, to have the attributes to distinguish myself from the person next to me. It is not an easy path to walk, it gets lonely and overbearing most days in my head, but only because I forget to open my eyes to the beautiful people that cherish this very life I'm living. My past life and I are no longer friends, I am not spiteful, but thankful for the occasions that have made this life worth living..